Something is wrong. I feel like my mind wants to fall in love but can’t find a girl to do this with. Never had that before.
Since I’m in university, I’ve made friend, but all of them male. I think it’s safe to say that every female I’ve talked to in the past month (not counting random strangers), is my mom. Possibly my grandma too.
Still, my mind wants a girl to project it’s love onto. Guess that’s the reason I’ve been thinking about my last crush a lot recently, even though she broke off our friendship 10 months 12 days and 13.5 hours ago (approximately) (after finding the things I wrote on this site).
So, yeah, that’s an update on my boring life, mostly written because I don’t really have another place to share my mind with.
Oh god, reading that post back makes my look so lonely. Well, I still feel happy 90% of the time, so it’ll all be fine soon.
Also, Alex Day will probably host the livestream later. (You know, that guy that lives with Charlieissocoollike (You know, the most popular Youtuber ever.).)
Also also: a penny gets donated by the vlogbrothers themselves for every comment on a p4a video.
For anyone still following me (after not posting for just too long) and don’t know what p4a is. p4a stands for project for awesome, a great charity event that is going on RIGHT NOW on youtube. It’s not for just one charity, people make video’s for a charity they like. These video’s get comment spammed, liked, favourited to take over youtube, and raise money for these charities. Right now, we’ve raised over $30.000 in just 6 hours. Sounds interesting? Here’s the p4a channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/project4awesome
Vlogbrothers channel (2 guys that initiated this, and also the greatest youtube channel there is):http://www.youtube.com/user/vlogbrothers
There’s currently a livestream on that last channel.
This will be a close-to-allnighter for me :D DFTBA
You can’t do one thing to make up for another,
that’s what Jordan Chase says.
But he’s wrong, because we do that all the time.
That is the way the world works. We try to make things right.
Lumen said I gave her her life back. A reversal of my usual role.
Well the fact is she gave me mine back too.
And I am left not with what she took from me but with what she brought.
Eyes that saw me, finally, for who I really am.
And this certainty that nothing, nothing, is set in stone. Not even darkness.
While she was here she made me think for the briefest moment
that I might even have a chance to be human.
But whishes, of course, are for children.
You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that stands forgiven
You’ll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that stands forgiven
Forgiven - Within Temptation
Yeah, sure Windows. My playlist is over 68 million hours long. That’s over 7750 years…
(For better view: http://dl.dropbox.com/u/4793724/68146128.png)
Hello Tumblr! I’m back.
So… to fresh up your minds; when I started with Tumblr back in January, I mostly uploaded funny/inspiring photo’s and pictures. Then I fell in love (and denied this) with a beautiful girl, and this kinda became my diary in which I wrote my thoughts about her and us. Then, in a way I still don’t know, the previously mentioned girl found this blog and ended our friendship. At the time, I immediately stopped using Tumblr. I kinda blamed my personal disaster on this site. Now I figured she didn’t ‘dump’ me because of the fact that I wrote my feelings about her down here, but that I had the feelings in the first place.
Now I’ll see what I’ll do with Tumblr. Maybe I’ll go back to posting pictures, maybe I’ll make this my diary again or maybe this post won’t get any follow-ups… In case of the second option, don’t feel ‘obliged’ to read my rambling; it’s more of a personal logbook than a blog.
See you another time, Tumblr!
That is where I am now. I made posts here of my thoughts. Probably the biggest mistake I ever made. Who was I to think I could thrust my thoughts to the internet?
I’m never going to do that again. I’ll decide later whether I’ll continue blogging pictures and reblogging and stuff, or that I’m going to give up on Tumblr.
So some people found my blog, that’s why this new URL. I basically used a trick and put a message for them on the old URL. I’ll be posting less personal stuff from now on, to ensure that this doesn’t happen again. I also want to think about her less, and writing about her isn’t the way to go.